Hilong time no seeI know it’s beenages since youlast saw me.Since you lastheard from me, sinceI lastspoke of this - this darknessyep, the very same, the one that makes merun ‘n hidefrom fear, fromchaos, frominconceivable pain,not the physical kindnot only the physical kindthe withering, the overwhelming, thetorturous ghost that'salways been, yet seems tonever go awaythe emotional, the heartbreakingly,... Continue Reading →
Learning to Accept, Adapt, and Move On, but first . . .
I feel embarrassed. Partly because I've made promises that I haven't kept. Partly because I haven't actually posted anything in this blog for nine months. And partly because I've put my priorities on things and people that won't get me where I want to be. I feel embarrassed because I've reverted back to my old... Continue Reading →
Branching Out: a rebeccanne update
If you're a reader of my blog, then you know I have been struggling a lot with my identity in my own world of chronic pain, on and off depression, and anxiety. Most of you know I'm a model by profession and even fewer probably know I have a passion for writing. I've been mentioning... Continue Reading →
The 9-Month Journey
It was May 2018. With our lease up in June and our flight out approaching the 22nd of May, we spent most of our nights at my childhood home, slowly moving out of our place in Oak Park and moving into the only home I knew. But also the home that didn't feel like home... Continue Reading →
Well, hello there.
R: Well, hello there. W: It's been quite the year hasn't it? R: Yes. I believe so. W: Have you returned? R: Yes. W: Are you sure? R: Well, I sure hope so. .... R: Have you been waiting long? W: I've been here . . . Always. Ahh, so you've been. You've never left,... Continue Reading →
The Hubs and I Split (But, it’s not what you think)
Yep. I'm in Hong Kong to try out this market for modeling and he's in Bali, eating, praying, loving. More so eating than praying. We decided to go our separate ways for this part of the trip. Not because we're having problems. Not because this first year of marriage is rough. But because Hong Kong,... Continue Reading →
Lost & Found
How can one be both at the same time? Given my current situation, I'd say, it is quite possible. I keep cycling back. It’s like I’m stuck in some kind of time loop. I created a new draft to post, but I realized I’ve been a bit redundant. I’ve been in the same set of... Continue Reading →
The End of an Era
I thought I'd write a special post dedicated to this particular date. 12/29/2017. It's not an anniversary or anything, just an ordinary day. The final marking of this single lived path for a good chunk of time. I've been with the company for 5 years. Straight outta college and right into the working world of... Continue Reading →
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