I am not quitting. I am not giving up. I am definitely, utterly, entirely NOT a failure. Throughout the one and a half years of my journey as a Mary Kay Independent Beauty Consultant, I have learned a lot about the company, how to run a business, how to manage my time and money, how... Continue Reading →
The Night
What an interesting time of day, The Darkness The Silence Everything gone mute. Not a single sound Only thoughts of clarification Peace of mind The Night -- so calm so mysterious so . . . wonderful Gazing into the darkness slowly turning bright. How strange... overlooking beyond the horizon, you see one tiny dot lifting up... Continue Reading →
Repeat.
Is there no end to this cycle? Round and round it goes. Bolts of energy and motivation melts away giving me sudden exhaustion and pain. Repeat. It has begun again. The high on life left me with regret and guilt of uncompleted tasks that gnaws at my brain. A certain lack of motivation starts the... Continue Reading →
Hurt.
Blinking away tears. Body screaming. Heart sobbing. Emotions running wild. Having your shit together all the time is extremely draining. Being always 100%. Showing that nothing can ever bring your spirit down is impossible. Emotionally exhausted from one thing after the next. I don’t know how much longer I can take. Sleep deprived. Feeling restless.... Continue Reading →
It's dull here. In the now Why me? Why must I sacrifice? A passion . . .my happiness . . . I have not surrendered. I will not come willingly. At least not today . . . . . . probably not for a long time. Let me go. Please. Can't you see I'm drowning? That... Continue Reading →
Response to: Crushed by Parental and Societal Pressure, Asian American Students Are Resorting to Suicide
I have been debating to post this piece since I first wrote it. Thinking and over thinking of the aftermath of posting it. Thinking of the cons in my head, but wanting to post this to potentially help someone. So, I put my over thinking confused emotions aside and decided if this post really does... Continue Reading →
i am HEAR. can you HERE me?
All my life I felt invisible. My voice unheard. I was a blur in the crowd. A nobody. Secretly trying to break free from the struggle to be somebody. To be seen. To be heard. All my life I was pushed aside and never shined. I never felt important. I never felt there was a... Continue Reading →
i vs. me
Have you ever experienced a kind of pressure that was sucking your energy and kept you locked up from what you truly desire? Were you able to find the courage within yourself to escape to the land of freedom? This tug-o-war with myself is quite exhausting. Although, my mind is clearer and those "dark thoughts"... Continue Reading →
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