The Night

What an interesting time of day,
The Darkness
The Silence
Everything gone mute.
Not a single sound
Only thoughts of clarification
Peace of mind

The Night —
so calm
so mysterious
so . . .
wonderful
Gazing into
the darkness
slowly turning bright.
How strange… overlooking beyond the horizon, you see one tiny dot lifting up the sky, lightening the day.

I took advantage of my jet lag.  The time of my awareness when all was calm and quiet.  I did not sleep.  I could not sleep.  It was a great time for my existence to sit and ponder of what I want to do and plan to do.  My mind was clearer than ever.  For a split second, I was . . . happy, content, relaxed, at ease, comfortable. Now that I took a “nap” to try to get me through, to adjust my sleeping habits, to get my mind on the right clock, I feel the anxiety rising in the gut.  I feel guilty.  I feel sad.  I wish I could go back to that feeling when all was silent.  No outside noises disrupting my thoughts.  No inside thoughts troubling my every doubt.

I haven’t written in a while.  It feels so good to write.  I have been writing about my trip to share with you guys, but every time I try to sit down to write it, mostly during my stay in Japan, I was on the move and if I wasn’t on the move I was sleeping.  It was very difficult to find time to write.  I think I may have some more time on my hands.  If I can overcome this jet lag faster than I hope, I hope to write it in the present tense, as if I am still in Japan and the events of yesterday happened the way I remember it. I made a promise and I intend to keep it, the words take time to write, but it should be coming soon.

rebeccanne