What an interesting time of day,
Everything gone mute.
Not a single sound
Only thoughts of clarification
Peace of mind
The Night —
so . . .
slowly turning bright.
How strange… overlooking beyond the horizon, you see one tiny dot lifting up the sky, lightening the day.
I took advantage of my jet lag. The time of my awareness when all was calm and quiet. I did not sleep. I could not sleep. It was a great time for my existence to sit and ponder of what I want to do and plan to do. My mind was clearer than ever. For a split second, I was . . . happy, content, relaxed, at ease, comfortable. Now that I took a “nap” to try to get me through, to adjust my sleeping habits, to get my mind on the right clock, I feel the anxiety rising in the gut. I feel guilty. I feel sad. I wish I could go back to that feeling when all was silent. No outside noises disrupting my thoughts. No inside thoughts troubling my every doubt.
I haven’t written in a while. It feels so good to write. I have been writing about my trip to share with you guys, but every time I try to sit down to write it, mostly during my stay in Japan, I was on the move and if I wasn’t on the move I was sleeping. It was very difficult to find time to write. I think I may have some more time on my hands. If I can overcome this jet lag faster than I hope, I hope to write it in the present tense, as if I am still in Japan and the events of yesterday happened the way I remember it. I made a promise and I intend to keep it, the words take time to write, but it should be coming soon.
I dig this post! Oftentimes I feel the same way… without all the distractions and noise of the day, it’s so much easier to clear my head and just sit and think. I’ve found it very peaceful sometimes to sit out under the stars and just shut off all the commotion in my head. Not every day, er, night rather, that I can do this, but it’s well worth it when I can.
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