What an interesting time of day,
Everything gone mute.
Not a single sound
Only thoughts of clarification
Peace of mind
The Night —
so . . .
slowly turning bright.
How strange… overlooking beyond the horizon, you see one tiny dot lifting up the sky, lightening the day.
I took advantage of my jet lag. The time of my awareness when all was calm and quiet. I did not sleep. I could not sleep. It was a great time for my existence to sit and ponder of what I want to do and plan to do. My mind was clearer than ever. For a split second, I was . . . happy, content, relaxed, at ease, comfortable. Now that I took a “nap” to try to get me through, to adjust my sleeping habits, to get my mind on the right clock, I feel the anxiety rising in the gut. I feel guilty. I feel sad. I wish I could go back to that feeling when all was silent. No outside noises disrupting my thoughts. No inside thoughts troubling my every doubt.
I haven’t written in a while. It feels so good to write. I have been writing about my trip to share with you guys, but every time I try to sit down to write it, mostly during my stay in Japan, I was on the move and if I wasn’t on the move I was sleeping. It was very difficult to find time to write. I think I may have some more time on my hands. If I can overcome this jet lag faster than I hope, I hope to write it in the present tense, as if I am still in Japan and the events of yesterday happened the way I remember it. I made a promise and I intend to keep it, the words take time to write, but it should be coming soon.