Dear World, I feel utterly and tragically lost. I feel the world crashing down on me and crushing me whole. Gnawing at me. Pushing me down. Taking my feet and dragging me. Throwing me around. I feel like I am dying inside and I have lost myself. I feel like I’ve lost me. I’ve lost... Continue Reading →
Food. Pain. Me.
When I eat good, I feel good. When I eat poor, I feel poor. Why do I put myself in situations like that just for a small window of instant gratification? Every time I think about my relationship to food, I think of that one Weight Watchers commercial a few years back. Hilarious, yet so... Continue Reading →
Life as I Know it
A never-ending cycle that exists as I believe it does. Although the mind a very sensitive place, can be the most important key to point you in the right direction. A clear mind is the best mind. It’s a peace of mind. The beauty within. It strengthens you. Empowers you. Guides you in the direction... Continue Reading →
Pain is my Savior
I guess you can say I’m the girl with the love - hate relationship with the big P. It’s always been my guardian angel . . . a fucking messed up one, in my opinion. Oh, it’s saved me from being quadriplegic and actually, it saved me from a few potential deaths throughout my 26... Continue Reading →
Story Time: About a Girl, Part 3
PART ONE & PART TWO why me.......... why me? Sitting in my room with the door closed. Staring down at a piece of paper with questions and blank spaces and a mechanical pencil at hand. Looking through the book for answers. I hate this. The pain increases by the minute. why must I suffer? Sharpness... Continue Reading →
Today, I Can’t Deal… but, Tomorrow?
Something I learned: Depression doesn’t just go away. Deep sadness lies within each and every one of us, but is only activated in those facing a great deal of struggle or struggles. It can be a mixture of things, some of which are unknown to the one experiencing it in the first place. You... Continue Reading →
WAR
These next few months are going to be brutal. The reminder is constant. Yet, the call to action is inconsistent. This struggle is gnawing at me. My survival skills are weakening. I am weakening. My train of thought. My motivation. My happy spirit. They are all failing. My emotions are out of control. Although, you cannot... Continue Reading →
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I am not afraid. The thing that haunts me is no longer lingering. It's taunting breath making me doubt myself. It lurks in the shadows, creeping up on me every now and then. Chasing the dream that matters most. I'm untouchable. Looking over my shoulder is no longer a paranoia. Confidence has risen. I have awoken.... Continue Reading →
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