Upon discovering my recent health dilemma, I fell into this hole. It was difficult to wake up in the morning, difficult to fall asleep It was difficult to be consistent in eating good food It was difficult to stay away from simple carbs, sugar, pizza, and Jalapeno Cheddar Cheetos. It was difficult to “fit” exercise... Continue Reading →
Pain is my Savior
I guess you can say I’m the girl with the love - hate relationship with the big P. It’s always been my guardian angel . . . a fucking messed up one, in my opinion. Oh, it’s saved me from being quadriplegic and actually, it saved me from a few potential deaths throughout my 26... Continue Reading →
But, Hey! At least, you’re not paralyzed
Time and time again I've gotten my hopes up for the day that pain will no longer be an issue in my life. Maybe something is terribly wrong with me, fingers crossed for some mild, curable brain disease! Because at least with that... it can be fixed. A year ago, I was about 80% aware and... Continue Reading →
Lord, hear me.
There's no place to hide. Running isn't an option. The plate is fully loaded. Too much weight to carry. I can't deal. My mess, My individual pain, My own problems are pushed. I cannot take it anymore. It's not about me. Be brave. Be strong. Be stable. Weakening, that I am. I've got too much on my plate.... Continue Reading →
Reality Check 3
Hey all, here’s a reality check after nearly a month long silence. This may be a little long because A. I have learned A LOT over the past year and the knowledge has been piling higher and higher, and B. Life was definitely a bit rough with its’ endless amounts of challenges to overcome in... Continue Reading →
Story Time: About a Girl, Part 3
PART ONE & PART TWO why me.......... why me? Sitting in my room with the door closed. Staring down at a piece of paper with questions and blank spaces and a mechanical pencil at hand. Looking through the book for answers. I hate this. The pain increases by the minute. why must I suffer? Sharpness... Continue Reading →
Today, I Can’t Deal… but, Tomorrow?
Something I learned: Depression doesn’t just go away. Deep sadness lies within each and every one of us, but is only activated in those facing a great deal of struggle or struggles. It can be a mixture of things, some of which are unknown to the one experiencing it in the first place. You... Continue Reading →
Story Time: About a Girl, Part 2
Click here for Part One. “She needs a neck brace.”“She will be fine without a neck brace.”“I demand you give her a neck brace, even if it’s just a soft collar!” A week finally passed and I was released to go home. I remember it clearly . . . well, almost clearly . . . I... Continue Reading →
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