Reflection: 2014

This is the year of the horse.  This is my year . . . was my year . . . almost over, it’ll end in February. If I took a step back from all the chaos and clutter of what this year brought me, the thoughts I have in the moment, and the emotions that I’m facing in overdrive, I would say my individual progression has had a rapid growth.  A good way to begin in a new direction.  An unknown and scary path, but a path filled with hopes and dreams of chasing a life I want.

I have come a long way since this time in 2013.  I don’t exactly remember what thoughts were preoccupying my mind during 2013, but I’m sure it was me trying to remain optimistic with negative thoughts creeping in and out.

Even though there’s a big part of me that feels like I’ve been lazy and did absolutely nothing, looking back on what I’ve actually done made me realize I have accomplished a great deal this year.  I have given myself crap and beaten myself up over the things I have neglected to do, but I have yet to acknowledge the things I have accomplished.  I think this is the perfect time to reflect on my achievements.

I am so grateful for the choices I have made.  The steps I’ve taken to lead me in this new direction.  My mind is clearer and I am happier. I feel my life becoming more stable and I’m maturing into a better me.  There’s still a lot to work on, but I am satisfied on the newly discovered path.  I don’t think of self-destruction.  I think of motivation and self-empowerment.  I think of strength and optimism. I think of my goals and the dreams I enjoy chasing.   I think of healthy living and enjoying life.  It’s a kind a self-fulfillment and I will not let go of it.

What have I done in 2014?:

• Mario, Make Me a Model Audition – Didn’t get in, but was called back for a Mario Tricoci Urban Hair Native Show as a presentation model AND was one of the few who was called back from Factor Women.
• Found Help for my depression, currently working through my anxiety.
• Hired a personal trainer to help me get in shape, especially because I’m limited to a lot of basic exercises due to my neck
• Not only am I exercising regularly, I am also eating healthier.
• Started a blog and I’m writing consistently: for my blog and for myself
• Signed with Stewart Talent Agency
• Personally Gained: independence, patience, confidence, self-esteem, etc.

I have succeeded in a lot of different parts in my life.  It is time for a new adventure.  It’s time to create new goals and take more steps forward.  I am excited for what’s to come.  I am excited for tomorrow.  I am excited for the upcoming year.  There will be struggles. There will be obstacles.  There will be heartache.  And there will be many times that I will possibly break down in tears.  But, I am pumped to continue growing into a better person, to pursue my dreams, to chase my happiness, to love myself, and love what I do.  This is me and I’m ready to welcome 2015.

rebeccanne