The feeling is real. It finally sunk in. I. AM. EXCITED. NOW! Signing a piece of paper is just like any other day where you need your John Hancock on the dotted line. But this piece of paper has some significance. It's got something very important hidden between the sheets. And you need a magnifying... Continue Reading →
今天 Today 10/28/14
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." Today is a brand new day. Give me courage and give me strength. Hopefully this journey is the start of something wonderful. Now, is the chance for me... Continue Reading →
Hungry or just bored? . . . a little victory
hmm… Light fills the dark room as the refrigerator door swings open. The cold air rushes out leaving goosebumps on her skin. She’s tapping her pointer finger to her chin. hmm…. Squatting down to eye level, she sticks her head inside, hmm... Looking into the cold box, she notices there’s nothing but veggies, some pasta,... Continue Reading →
indifferent to the robotic man
At this point, i’m indifferent. I stand motionless, unable to move. It’s out of my control. Silence fills the air. My voice is mute, your opinions don’t matter. I’m not being heard. Everything, my thoughts. my actions. my words. all of me. Every part of me, s c r e a m s wake up!... Continue Reading →
The Night
What an interesting time of day, The Darkness The Silence Everything gone mute. Not a single sound Only thoughts of clarification Peace of mind The Night -- so calm so mysterious so . . . wonderful Gazing into the darkness slowly turning bright. How strange... overlooking beyond the horizon, you see one tiny dot lifting up... Continue Reading →
Repeat.
Is there no end to this cycle? Round and round it goes. Bolts of energy and motivation melts away giving me sudden exhaustion and pain. Repeat. It has begun again. The high on life left me with regret and guilt of uncompleted tasks that gnaws at my brain. A certain lack of motivation starts the... Continue Reading →
Hurt.
Blinking away tears. Body screaming. Heart sobbing. Emotions running wild. Having your shit together all the time is extremely draining. Being always 100%. Showing that nothing can ever bring your spirit down is impossible. Emotionally exhausted from one thing after the next. I don’t know how much longer I can take. Sleep deprived. Feeling restless.... Continue Reading →
It's dull here. In the now Why me? Why must I sacrifice? A passion . . .my happiness . . . I have not surrendered. I will not come willingly. At least not today . . . . . . probably not for a long time. Let me go. Please. Can't you see I'm drowning? That... Continue Reading →
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