Missing Dad

A good friend asked me how I was managing my grief during this period. It's been six years since my dad passed away and sometimes it stings and sometimes it doesn't. Lately, though, I haven't really thought about it until now . . . My dad visited me in a dream last night, and it... Continue Reading →

Becoming Mother

As I weave the title "Mom" into my identity, I can't help but reflect on a previous post about identity and purpose. For those of you who have been with me since the beginning, you know my struggles with identity in the past. And it was only recent *ahem, last year* that I understood my... Continue Reading →

Finding Gratitude in the midst of Anxiety

It's easy to get overwhelmed when planning for a baby, especially when the weeks are dwindling down and the countdown timer has begun. Then add an anxious person into the mix and it's even easier to drown. Honestly, I feel like I have been suffocating periodically with very little support. And my worrying has been... Continue Reading →

Midnight Thoughts: A Life Update

Chronic pain is the number one reason I kept going back and forth about becoming pregnant. I was worried about the affects pregnancy would have on my body and what it would entail to carry a baby for 9 months. I was worried about labor itself and my existing lack of pain tolerance and how... Continue Reading →

Life’s Not Done

Hilong time no seeI know it’s beenages since youlast saw me.Since you lastheard from me, sinceI lastspoke of this - this darknessyep, the very same, the one that makes merun ‘n hidefrom fear, fromchaos, frominconceivable pain,not the physical kindnot only the physical kindthe withering, the overwhelming, thetorturous ghost that'salways been, yet seems tonever go awaythe emotional, the heartbreakingly,... Continue Reading →

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