Three words that kill me from the start. While writing Tasks are only as difficult as the mind believes it is, I realized why I do what I do and why breaking the cycle has been such a struggle. Realizations happen when you least expect it and sometimes they come at exactly the right moments. At... Continue Reading →
Tasks are only as difficult as the mind believes it is
Upon discovering my recent health dilemma, I fell into this hole. It was difficult to wake up in the morning, difficult to fall asleep It was difficult to be consistent in eating good food It was difficult to stay away from simple carbs, sugar, pizza, and Jalapeno Cheddar Cheetos. It was difficult to “fit” exercise... Continue Reading →
Pain is my Savior
I guess you can say I’m the girl with the love - hate relationship with the big P. It’s always been my guardian angel . . . a fucking messed up one, in my opinion. Oh, it’s saved me from being quadriplegic and actually, it saved me from a few potential deaths throughout my 26... Continue Reading →
But, Hey! At least, you’re not paralyzed
Time and time again I've gotten my hopes up for the day that pain will no longer be an issue in my life. Maybe something is terribly wrong with me, fingers crossed for some mild, curable brain disease! Because at least with that... it can be fixed. A year ago, I was about 80% aware and... Continue Reading →
好久不见- Long time no see
It’s been a while and I’m just about running out of excuses. It’s time to take away the obligation and guilt of having the worst procrastination in the world of not being something or someone by now. I’m focusing on me for a change. I don’t want to spend my life proving myself to the... Continue Reading →
Lord, hear me.
There's no place to hide. Running isn't an option. The plate is fully loaded. Too much weight to carry. I can't deal. My mess, My individual pain, My own problems are pushed. I cannot take it anymore. It's not about me. Be brave. Be strong. Be stable. Weakening, that I am. I've got too much on my plate.... Continue Reading →
es – ca – pe
i need to. far away. leave. i got to go. finally it hits me. hard. like a rock to the chest- yes, literally, someone threw a rock at me. this once security net is . . . no longer… safe. nothing is ever safe. life is filled with surprises it’s either great or bad, very... Continue Reading →
Reality Check 3
Hey all, here’s a reality check after nearly a month long silence. This may be a little long because A. I have learned A LOT over the past year and the knowledge has been piling higher and higher, and B. Life was definitely a bit rough with its’ endless amounts of challenges to overcome in... Continue Reading →