Once you experience a heart-wrenchingly painful loss that hits you to your core, the grief never leaves your side. Grief can hit at any point in your life at the most unexpected of times, but it definitely gets easier. Sometimes it'll break your heart all over again and sometimes you'll smile at the memories--or even... Continue Reading →
Becoming Mother; part 2
Well, it's official. I am a mom now. My baby girl is nearing 9 months already and I still cannot believe she's here. Over time, I've learned the importance of knowing my identity. It's something I need in order to know my sense of self. It not only gives me clarity, but it gives me... Continue Reading →
The Storm that Passed and My . . . How it Feels Freeing
I wanted to take the time to update my fellow WordPress bloggers and readers of the bliss that I’ve gained after surviving a tornado of emotions. Partly to show I'm alive and still kickin' and partly to revel in this newfound joy of making it through one of the darkest moments in my life thus... Continue Reading →
Life’s Not Done
Hilong time no seeI know it’s beenages since youlast saw me.Since you lastheard from me, sinceI lastspoke of this - this darknessyep, the very same, the one that makes merun ‘n hidefrom fear, fromchaos, frominconceivable pain,not the physical kindnot only the physical kindthe withering, the overwhelming, thetorturous ghost that'salways been, yet seems tonever go awaythe emotional, the heartbreakingly,... Continue Reading →
I AM NOT OKAY
And that's okay. I haven't really been myself for over a month now. Or maybe this has been going on much longer than I realized. Either way, I'm here to say, I'm alive and I'm working on it. Depression is a finicky thing. Not all days are bad, some are not so bad, some are... Continue Reading →
Stuck Inside
It's not because the threat of COVID19 It's not because I'm a natural hermit, a homebody I'm not unable It's not like I don't know how It's because I'm frozen. I'm stuck inside trapped I don't know how to escape from the maze of my own mind my own brain is working against my own... Continue Reading →
Lost & Found
How can one be both at the same time? Given my current situation, I'd say, it is quite possible. I keep cycling back. It’s like I’m stuck in some kind of time loop. I created a new draft to post, but I realized I’ve been a bit redundant. I’ve been in the same set of... Continue Reading →
Present (3/6 Excerpt from Beyond the Cover)
Beyond the Cover IntroductionPast (1/6) - optionalNuts for Coco (2/6) February 2011 I realized something today. Something very important about my life. I’m living. But I’m not really alive. I seem happy. People see me smiling, laughing, and making jokes. But can’t you see? It’s a mask. I am not okay. I’m floating in and out... Continue Reading →
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