Hilong time no seeI know it’s beenages since youlast saw me.Since you lastheard from me, sinceI lastspoke of this - this darknessyep, the very same, the one that makes merun ‘n hidefrom fear, fromchaos, frominconceivable pain,not the physical kindnot only the physical kindthe withering, the overwhelming, thetorturous ghost that'salways been, yet seems tonever go awaythe emotional, the heartbreakingly,... Continue Reading →
I AM NOT OKAY
And that's okay. I haven't really been myself for over a month now. Or maybe this has been going on much longer than I realized. Either way, I'm here to say, I'm alive and I'm working on it. Depression is a finicky thing. Not all days are bad, some are not so bad, some are... Continue Reading →
Why I Took a Break from Instagram
Somehow, without fail, I open up Instagram and instantly feel really crappy about myself. It's like I need to be doing something really amazing with my life otherwise, I'm nothing. I often forget social media is a lie. Just because a post shows something really cool, doesn't mean that's how that person is living their... Continue Reading →
Do you want the good news or bad news first?
Well, since I was super morbid in my last post, maybe I should start out with the good. Good news is all my tests I took (the EMG, an MRI of the brain, and an MRI of my lower back) all came back normal & to rehash the whole cervical spine degeneration arthritis bit -... Continue Reading →
A Very Morbid Health Update
A part of me secretly hopes my neurologist finds something abnormal, at least it'll explain all the wrong that's been happening to me. I want answers, but also, I don't want things to be too serious to the point of dying a slow and agonizing death. To be completely dark and morbid, and well I... Continue Reading →
D R A I N E D
I don't know about you guys, but 2020 has been exhausting. It has been a trying year for me mentally, emotionally, and physically. Of course, there's been ups during this slow period in all of our lives, but this chronic pain of mine has been draining. As new symptoms surfaced, the amount of pain I've... Continue Reading →
Who are you?
The dreaded "Who am I?" question. I am turning 30 this year. I know, unbelievable, people still assume I'm like 18. Good genes, I guess. Thanks Mom & Dad. But still, this question really irks me. I mean, I know I've really struggled in the past about my identity. Heck, I still find myself struggling today. But... Continue Reading →
My Quarantined Life
Hello WordPress World, How are you? How's your family, your friends, every person you care for in this world? It's such a crazy time. What have you been doing to pass the time? I hope all is well. You're all are staying healthy, staying indoors if you can, washing your hands regularly, wearing masks when you... Continue Reading →
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