Ok- so as you must know. I’m pretty shy. Actually, I’m so shy that I don’t know what to do with myself sometimes. Things are getting better, but I’m still a pretty shy person!
I actually have anxiety building when I try something new, or go to new places by myself, or do something that frightens me.
You all know I’m trying really hard to get into modeling. And I have been putting off seeing agents for some time. Too nervous. Too scared. I kept making up excuses. I’m not fit enough. I’m not tall enough. I’m not thin enough. All things that are self-doubt and all things troubling.
I have no excuse now. I’ve lost the weight. I’m at the required fashion measurements. *kinda, sorta*. I am currently seeing a physical trainer to get fit, and have been 100% committed to it.
Last week, I decided to try commercial agencies first and planned a morning filled with raw images and created a bunch of email drafts targeted towards a bunch of agencies I’m interested in.
SO, TODAY!!!!
Just sent out the messages, feeling kind of calm, a little anxious, and even felt a sense of regret after hitting “send”. 5 minutes later, I received a phone call from one of the agencies. OMG!!! That was flippin’ fast!
I was shaking, smiling really big, and literally jumping up and down in my cubicle.
Meeting with an agent tomorrow! Wish me luck!! I hope they love me that they sign with me! Super nervous now!
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