When my world around me crashes in front of me, the only thing that keeps me sane is modeling. Well, that and obviously writing. Although, I am writing more often, I haven’t done any photo shoots in a while, mostly because of the recent discovery of the blood clot in my lung. Yay me, as if I didn’t already have a lot of medical problems on my plate, let’s just add a potential heart attack! No pain = Death, Pain = Alive. Yay for “pain”! *SIGH*, why me?So, as many of you know, I have been struggling with some issues. My voice being unheard, being invisible, yada yada yada and all that jazz, but it’s a feeling that is honest.
One way for me to stand out of the crowd is through modeling. I enjoy being in front of the camera, not because I want to be that attention hog or that I am obsessed with myself. Besides, I don’t think a lot of models, good models that is, are really that vain. But, modeling gives me that escape from my reality. I love the rush of the runway, love getting my hair and makeup done, and transforming to someone else. A chance for me to be that social butterfly I’ve always wanted to become. A chance for me to show a glimpse of the real me. A chance that I can open up and show more of my personality through the camera, through the photos taken, through everyone I meet when I’m in my modeling zone! I love being able to portray many different characters through modeling. It gives me energy and I’m left feeling happier and more satisfied with who I am after each successful and awesome photo shoot or event. I don’t mind being tired after a long day of modeling. For those of you who think modeling is all fancy and frills, it’s not! IT. IS. HARD. WORK! But, telling you how modeling is a lot of hard work will have to be saved for a later date or I’m sure some of you already know that! Through modeling, I am seen. I am heard. People notice that I am a person and there is that satisfaction about not being invisible for once.
Modeling is a part of my life that I would really like to pursue. It’s a passion that brings me happiness in every aspect of my life.