I don't know about you guys, but 2020 has been exhausting. It has been a trying year for me mentally, emotionally, and physically. Of course, there's been ups during this slow period in all of our lives, but this chronic pain of mine has been draining. As new symptoms surfaced, the amount of pain I've... Continue Reading →
The Truth about Pain
. . . is that it makes you question everything . . . Nothing seems to help. The fear keeps on creeping. Darkness shatters faith. The hole is beginning. You're left standing in the darkness. Thinking. Pondering. Wondering what went wrong. Why is it you that is suffering? Did you deserve this? What's God's big... Continue Reading →
Food. Pain. Me.
When I eat good, I feel good. When I eat poor, I feel poor. Why do I put myself in situations like that just for a small window of instant gratification? Every time I think about my relationship to food, I think of that one Weight Watchers commercial a few years back. Hilarious, yet so... Continue Reading →
Life as I Know it
A never-ending cycle that exists as I believe it does. Although the mind a very sensitive place, can be the most important key to point you in the right direction. A clear mind is the best mind. It’s a peace of mind. The beauty within. It strengthens you. Empowers you. Guides you in the direction... Continue Reading →
Are You Stupid?
Three words that kill me from the start. While writing Tasks are only as difficult as the mind believes it is, I realized why I do what I do and why breaking the cycle has been such a struggle. Realizations happen when you least expect it and sometimes they come at exactly the right moments. At... Continue Reading →
Pain is my Savior
I guess you can say I’m the girl with the love - hate relationship with the big P. It’s always been my guardian angel . . . a fucking messed up one, in my opinion. Oh, it’s saved me from being quadriplegic and actually, it saved me from a few potential deaths throughout my 26... Continue Reading →
好久不见- Long time no see
It’s been a while and I’m just about running out of excuses. It’s time to take away the obligation and guilt of having the worst procrastination in the world of not being something or someone by now. I’m focusing on me for a change. I don’t want to spend my life proving myself to the... Continue Reading →
Today, I Can’t Deal… but, Tomorrow?
Something I learned: Depression doesn’t just go away. Deep sadness lies within each and every one of us, but is only activated in those facing a great deal of struggle or struggles. It can be a mixture of things, some of which are unknown to the one experiencing it in the first place. You... Continue Reading →
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